One moment changed me forever

I knew that being a parent would change me; I just never knew how much. I finally got to lay my hands on my daughter around 3 am on September 4, 2011. This was a moment I waited my whole pregnancy for, I couldn't wait to see and love on her. But when I arrived at the NICU in my wheelchair, still recovering from the c-section and in terrible pain I realized that I would not get to hold my daughter or kiss on her. This moment changed me forever; being a parent I was suppose to protect her and keep her safe, I was suppose to hold her and snuggle her....but instead I was stuck in the wheelchair and could only put my hand on her. I have never felt so helpless and like a failure in my whole life. I couldn't keep her safe inside me and I couldn't protect her out in the big world.....what was I good for?!

After a few minutes of crying and feeling like a failure I decided to learn from this experience and remember what God had given me. A beautiful daughter, our miracle!