Being pregnant after having Maelee 7 weeks early and all the other complications that occurred makes things a bit scary and filled with worry. I am trying to take it one day at a time, focus on how wonderful it is to be pregnant again, and just know that God has plans and we will just wait to see what happens.
I am considered high risk for many reasons. With that comes extra doctor appointments, a shot in my thigh once a week for most of my pregnancy, and close monitoring to keep this baby inside until a scheduled c-section at the end of May 2014.
I want to keep this child in and feel what it is like to bring a baby home from the hospital when I am discharged, I want to know what it feels like to hold my child before days pass, I want to know what it is like to kiss my baby without wires and alarms going off....I want to know how it feels to feel like a Mommy the moment this baby is born..... But with all those wants that I have no control over the number one thing I want is this baby. So that may come with some hard times or it could go smooth the whole way....we will stand by and watch this child's story begin and see what God has instore for him/her.
I am thankful for the ability to carry a child when the odds were against me not just once but twice, I am thankful that Maelee will be given a lifelong friend and sibling at the same time, and I am thankful that Lee and I will get to experience all the wonderful baby things again.
Maelee will be the most amazing big sister ever and being able to watch that connection is something I am beyond thankful for! Our sweet peanut will have tons to teach this little one!!!!
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